I can't fit in! Hindi ko alam kung nahihirapan akong lumabas o nahihirapan akong pumasok PERO BASTA! I neither can fit in nor get out! Hindi ko maintindihan! Siguro there's this funny whatever na sumapi sakin that's why I find myself so DIFFERENT, SO DIFFERENT from who I was 2 or 3 months ago. Hindi ako makapasok. I don't belong. Pero hindi rin naman ako makalabas. What's with me? Tuloy naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Why can't I be consistent with things? Hay nako. And I'm tired of trying to fit in and trying to get out at the same time cause I can't do both! Labo. See? Tsk. Hindi ko alam, I can't understaaand. Haha! Siguro kelangan ko ng time-out to clear my mind up or really get my old self back but I can't right now and these are the things that once I try to have a time-out, I can't go back. :l
WHY CAN'T I BE CONSISTENT WITH THINGS?! :(
Tapos ngayon bumalik nanaman ata yung "sakit" ko. Kala ko hindi na babalik eh sabay nandiyan ulit. Ang shit. :( Smelbrop ytiroirefni. PROMISE. It's everywhere. At ang malala pa dun is gusto ko nanamang "tumakas". Okay, emo nanaman pero gets, I can't be happy forever. Things are really turning out bad, promise. :( I don't have problems with others, problema ko ata to sa sarili ko.
Ay nako. :( On the brighter side of things, my QT grades were okay/weird. :l Yeah, more of weird. I should be mourning for some, (EHEM CHEM) but I'm kinda rejoicing for the others. OKAY. :l SEE EVEN MY GRADES ARE NOT CONSISTENT!!! Labo biglang ganun.
Ang shit lang talaga tapos kanina pang umaga, napagalitan pa ako. Omaygad call me mababaw and everything pero naiiyak talaga ako pag naalala ko yung pagalit sakin ni Ms. Herrero. Kasi grabe talaga, ngayon lang ulit ako napagalitan ng ganun since when...grade 4? Grabe. Sabi ba naman niya, "Do you want me to kick you out?" GAGO!!! Omg sorry for the explicit content ah pero grabe. :( Parang yun na yung turning point eh. Ang shit na ng lahat, wala pa akong left-handed chair tapos "do you want me to kick you out?". GRABE. Sabay nung nakita niya si Ms. Hebron saksakan ng ingay mukang gago. Hipokrita. Nalulungkot lang talaga ako. Anong problema niya?! So wala, bagsak na nga yung Lab stuff ko, tapos ganun pa. Sige ano pa? Keep it coming. Oo at nagkeep it coming nga. Si Ms. jose naman, dahil sa reply slip. Eh anong magagawa ko? Wala nga akong magulang eh!
Tapos yung dress. OMAYGAD. Buweiset. Bahala na. May iba dun sa design, I think. Hay nako pangit na yun. Yung designer nalang magsuot. Peste.
I just wish I could've been more. Yuk emo shiet. I'm just thankful to the people who make emo seem not so bad. Hug. >:D< Hay nako. :(
I swear. I would love to get out of AA, ASAP. :l